k.. This para suppose to be posted long ago.. **(Man.. it's been a long time since i last blogged.. or even on my com been real busy these few days.. whether is it looking through my notes.. or catching up on lost sleep.. haha.. I feel tht this Sem.. damn tough.. there's ORDB.. some database subject.. cannot make it man.. wad select *.. wad from u.emp, u.cust, u.suck it la... lol.. school's been damn draining.. the only easy sub i have so far.. it'll be Calculus.. it's A maths basically.. but.. it's more practical den sec 4, like in more of a business senario.)**

TODAY'S POST OK.. just feel real crappy nowadays... been loaded with projects and term tests are approaching... damn stressed.. havent even started studying.. and i know nuts about ORDB.. fucked up subject.. recently, i've been thinking hard... why the fuck did i join BIT in the first place... but well.. cuz of my screwed up O'level results.. i was kinda even lucky to get into a poly, dun mention TP..

Life's fucked up.. i have expectations of myself, ppl have expectations of me.. but.. not up there just yet.... not gonna be up there unless i work real hard in this short period of time.. which.. i doubt i can make it.. i'd try my best though.. but tht's all i can offer..

Sharon's feeling the fucked-up-ness too... it's been real tough on her.. i can tell.. i feel for her.. but.. i duno wad to do.. if i think i'm feelin screwed.. i think she feels even worst.. lots of things in her life hasnt been going according to plan, dun worry gal.. i'll always be here for u.. like i know u will for me. So, chill.. be strong.. u can do it.... wadeva u want to do. ;)

Sorry about ur sms today.. didnt reply cuz.... damn sad la.. 'Jena' or Clarice, the gal in the PLMGSS musical 'The Father's Hands'. To be honest.. she's not That pretty, but she's cute.. i cant quite put my finger on it but.. i feel there's something special about her, tht i like... YA! i know u all will be like.. then how bout Gina.. why u so unfaithful to her.. but ya.. as u know.. i've waited 2yrs plus for her.. and now she treats me like i dun even exist.. i mean.. i understand she's busy, but it cant be that bad tht i cant even take her out once?? i know when i'm being ignored, but she denies, damn it.. no more..... i've got to move on.. although my feelings for her may nvr diminish. KKK!! back to Clarice.. ya.. so.. i got her to sms me, after awhile, i think it's cuz the age gap's too big.. she didnt reply my smses... btw.. she's 14 this yr.. dun start with the crap tht i like young gals, i'm a pedophile and all the fuck.. but.. really.. she's damn mature.. i think even more than some gals my age.. k.. so she stops smsing me rite?? so wad.. the yaosheng, yaowie or peter u know wont be even phased but it.... he'll just... get another gal.. rite?? no.... not this time... everything's weird... i'm.. actually... sad..?? dunno if tht's the correct word.. disappointed?? many mixed feelins.. and like... the gap's only 4 yrs... i dunno.. i think.. i'm more mature now.. not just going from one relationship to another... i want one tht can last... as long as we can keep track of time.

Yea.. it's late... damn sad now.. gonna hit the bed soon...

k.. reflections on the past week.. i feel i did my best for the UIR(cds) project.. no regrets.. also presented my E-biz Management project by myself.. did a great 5star last min job.. proud of it.

The concert at SJI, Renaissance, was gd as usual.. this time, went with all my good frens.. not with some gal.. as i used to.. oh.. cuz GINA WAS BUSY... see wad i mean.. we had supper at Newton after tht.. i love tht place now.. maybe cuz of the food.. but maybe.. cuz of of the times i've spent with my frens there.. yall rock man!!

The musical at ACS(barker) was fantastic.. not only cuz Clarice was in it, but cuz it was such a major event, 20buck per person.. wad do u think.Went with Sharon, was forced by her!! no la.. i'm actually quite into these things. Clarice was the star of the show, flawless performance, 10 out of 10. no less. OH, and ACSb's damn fuckin big man.. like.. maybe 2times of SJI? just imaging.... but... got news for u peeps... their Auditorium.... no match for our reknowned Performing Arts Centre(PAC), theirs only 1 level.. haha.. Amateurs... the chairs were as posh as ours.. but.. they were too shallow.. the heads of ppl sittin in front could block ur vision. yea.. oh ya.. the seats in SJI's PAC costs 400bucks each.. dig tht......... ;) ciao.. gtg.